He wrote to her:

Chocolates are not sweet,
It depends on the kinds
In the same way,
Feelings are not always sweet for us.

We may travel through dark, bitter moments at some point,
Just say when you or me lose our parents,
I don’t know how I would be able to make you better at that moment.

I may try to make you laugh –
Which may be worst thing to do,
May be I do nothing and give that grief space. You know, this heart won’t be in peace. As that moments this soul never want to see those tears tare you into pain.

This includes even me I don’t know, how I’ll be on that day when I am gonna lose my parents. But I want on such moments, our dark, bitter taste of flavoured phase. We should be One and able to handle each other.

Chocolates comes with expired date.
So some day you or me. Anyone of us
Gonna expire from this planet. I don’t know when but Yah, I pray either this expiration comes on the same day to us or I die first.

I think of our distance, later on I add up many things. In a lost way.

1. Apart from distance, it’s a mystery if we ever gonna meet or not
2. After that it’s about the circumstances as time and situations keep changing, will we be able to manage such time or will that time rule us?
3. Time when you be a mother again and that Stage of those precious crucial 9 months and responsibilities of family, in-laws and ya your life partner
4. All this plus protecting our bond with all of them, also when time you will be injured or sick in case or
5. When your future kids cause you trouble or you going with issues of your family, in-laws, life partner or career or anything that comes in life

Everything is gonna affect on one thing that’s “TIME”.

And moreover, I don’t know how you will be, your nature based on these circumstances. This is also gonna impact with time.

I don’t know if we add all these things… how much time and in other words if you say how much or how many memories I’ll be able to make with you.

That’s why I keep on telling you that life is very short and every second is crucial and precious to me when it comes to you.

And you know, I always mention as your “Life Partner” I never mention ‘soulmate’ as life-partner.

You know why? “In chocolates kitkat can’t be a Cadbury dairy milk”.

Both May made up with coco
Which is sperm same material
But still they are not same.
Difference, perspective and thinking
Makes lot of impact.

So life partner can be everything
Able to support love and care
And be always 24 hours with you
Yet they can’t always understand you.
They won’t always be able to respect your choices and decisions.
At some point in time, they will fail to understand you as they have limits and boundaries. They can’t always accept what you want in life.

‘Soulmates’ are the same
Not perfect in everything,
Yet they always acknowledge in positive way even if it’s not positive thing. Either that’s your life choices or any situation.
They may not understand everything
Yet they will give heart to listen and respect it even though that thing won’t include any happiness to his soul. They still always have heart and be with you. Then either any mistake is forgettable or never forgettable,
They are like diaries. “Not always living together but still staying together as one soul”.

Today is chocolates day but for me.. it’s OUR DAY. Everyday belongs to us. Even the week .. instead of Monday to Sunday.

It’s
Our Day
Each Day is our’s untill our last day of breath.

Yes! I do have all these thoughts how we are gonna survive our journey based on all these obstacles.

Heart says only one thing.
The way in this present day you are able to survive. In the same way. Just have faith in this “bond of us as one”.

So happy chocolate day oops! I mean “OUR DAY” of chocolate memories with precious flavours of us 💕

What will she have to write back??

I am taring myself into tears
To read these deepest feelings.
Those metaphors scuse my heart,
It gives me pain to imagine,
That phase of "parting off"
Can't resonate with the reasons.

I only have tears, confusion, fear, feeling, missing, almost dying with all such mixed ups... 
All together melting my heart,
Into a creamy bloody chocolate. No words, I can't write more,
I am almost lost, totally down.

Though we are independent -
With all the rights reserved,
To reach each other with no restrictions,
Still, we are strictly holding
And restricting ourselves
To preserve the peace to others.

Those are may be our family,
Any individual or parents,
Just to keep up the cultures,
Traditions or religious things
Sacrificing our hearts for all
I don't know what to name us.

May be I am for someone else,
Also you will be sure,
One day or other,
Soon or later but sure.
Not sure of hell or heaven,
Where the time takes us to be.

But, I am sure to be your's.
Except God and faith in him,
I have nothing to promise.
I keep up this chapter open,
Letting the time and fate to-
Write our epic journey together.

Irrespective of any existed -
Names for this love of us,
I would like to feel it as-
A blessing to have you for me,
Where I can mirror reflect,
Myself for whatever I am.

I was skillful enough to handle
My heart with many hurts to it
But, to carry these heavy- feelings of us with many
Blocks and obstacles to face,
I am soo week and can't make
A single day without you.

I know, the distance between us
Is like the Sky and Earth.
The universe is beautiful,
Just 'coz of them may be,
Likewise you & me and our togetherness. I am blessed.

Learnt to turn these tears
Into flowers and pray God.
Offering them at his feet,
Asking to be with us and
Bless us to meet one day.
May be at the heaven,
If not on this planet.

With tears and fears where there's no full stop

Copyright ©️ Suma Reddy

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