You are the only person for whom I don’t wanna think negative or wanna think of separation. That thinking only gives me some kind of sensation. I can’t explain how it feels but it’s like heart is just breaking into several pieces.
My soul just tares apart and due to that all comes out through the tears. I cry a lot, sometimes half an hour, sometimes half a day long too. I have never shared this to you but today I felt to, even now I am just in tears, they are just streaming , streaming and flowing.
I know deep in my heart, someday about separation, might be a possibility and of- course it’s true in today’s logic but there’s a saying that “if we close our eyes it doesn’t mean it’s the night”. In the same way my heart don’t want to accept those things that it also a part of relation my heart just want to close it’s eyes and just want to feel the deepest love for you.
It never wants to open the eyes of separation. When it tries to open, it starts crying. Hugs (I love this to use instead of sorry/thanks to you). I don’t know if this is making any sense by reading or I am just making it long for you to read but I don’t wanna hide it from you. I sometimes just think I might have broken many hearts indirect way so, this is may be just a small punishment to it. That thinking even breaks me into several pieces.
You know what! when I was watching the series of “Goblin”, it speaks and says about we have in total 4 lives: 1st we sow the seed, 2nd we give water to it, 3rd is harvest and 4th is to enjoy the result of it.
I guess I have sown the seed of love with you in my first life and I just forgot to water it and have kept looking for the other seeds. So, at the time of harvest that seed it just making me realised that you are late for the seed of love so m just hurt in this life but as this is my 3rd life due to my ignorance I have to live for the 2 life so your words of separation give me a thought that 4th life of enjoying the fruit of it will not be in this life I have to wait till it grows n harvest it that is taring me apart from within.
I don’t know why I became like this that I just keep on typing typing and typing I never use to write this much, I’ll stop here..
After few hours I realized that I overthink a lot and have so much of fear of loosing you.
Actually “Overthink” it’s like having a fear of “will I be able to last longer in bed types”.
And we forget it’s never about that thing. It’s all about enjoying every time either it’s in gap intervals or not or being a planet how in universal planets always surrounded for earth maybe it’s in distance billions of miles away but still they exist and stand with earth and face the sun ☀️
I hope you understand this metaphor. See love, make one thing fit in your mind and heart, have you ever seen an earthworm?
Earthworms are like this, usually if you cut them, they will grow again them selves and move ahead.
Similarly the heart of your’s and mine ♥️ is like that. So if separation cut us off. Don’t think that’s the end. We been separated so many times but somehow we grow our heart and never let it go away by holding in such a precious way. This will forever stay.
Even in future no matter what comes in life .. I’ll make sure that we both always grow this heart so much then no matter which situation tries to separate us.
I loved the Goblin 4 stages too and agree with them but I love to add one more main ingredient in this stage.
It does not matter either it’s about seed or harvesting or anything unless all of them don’t have their frequency attached to the soul that comes only in radio usually.
There have been so many ages since the radio was invented and if you take history of it and the present… one thing has never been changed in this era of radio.
“Frequency” always remained constant. What is frequency ? As all know, It’s that which connects the channels in the radio. Tuning into frequencies and listening.
So lots and tons of radio stations may be created or closed and it’s been replaced with many new concepts and shows. But frequency always existed till now frequency never left the radio and it always making the radio as radio.
So, our emotions and feelings which are connected are emotionally, mentally and physically are like this frequency.
Majorly, no matter who will be the host of this life as a partner as you are within my Soul deeply. It does not matter what will be the show of this life as I’ll be the classical era that can never be replaced by any show. For example, how till today’s date “the Titanic is titanic” and always generation of generations keeping it alive.
So, my dearest love…yes may be there will be less audiences to listen which is our heart itself, our heart beats are the audiences they may never love the show and always gonna miss the classical show and always have that original frequency which are our feelings that are invented with the radio of love started and developed since I found you as mine.
But it’s gonna be alive with pros and cons. Still feelings be there. Yes as all have it’s own flaws and deeds but what matters is we will be having this same frequency viewing up like how earthworms grow themselves.
That’s why, never underestimate the power of dirt as even the things from dirt are so valuable that human never think in day to day life for example earthworms.
I am honoured and blessed I feel you in this way my dear Love.
She replied with empty mind and silence
I am just blank with no ink In my mind or thoughts to write. I can mirror reflect each of - Your feelings poured out here, No power that I can beat or Bare your talent of classic- writings of your heart and feelings. Just in tears n great fears to loose you. That imagination and thought itself pulls me down deep, Under the Earth when am alive itself. No words I can't write anything.....Love you.... I only know one thing to please Please never ever leave me, It kills me to imagine to be alive without your presence In this journey of us, I will no more consider as mine But ours soo please...
Until am alive, You should never cry. I am with you in every situation. Trust me, nothing and no one have power to break- Our togetherness, Until our heart and soul are strong enough to feel and face each other.
I am just in deep sorrow. Would love to be in silence For now are for sometime Blank with nothing in mind But only you within. Lemme give the space to my silence in emptiness.
From the moment - I fallen for your love I started loving myself 'Coz your care taught me To care myself for "US" My soul wants to replace I love you with "I bow you" For the darling heart you got To love & feel me so much.
There's no end or ejection For this mad thoughts of you.
Dearest Love…., Valentine’s Day is on 14th So, I love to make …..14 times.
I wish it was on 28 February So it would be 28 times 😉
As I always say, we never need any special days to express our emotions.. but this is just based on Earth’s perspective as in reality if you see there is no such number exist to count how many times I love to make you feel with my deepest love.
Not just the desires but also in every way either it’s love, care, pampering or making efforts to understand you and listen to you with patience until my last breath.
Next year again this valentines week will be coming .. I don’t know how things between us by then but I know one thing and I wanna say this by using just an example… suppose if you get hurt or get angry on me for any reasons, if you soulfully wish to keep me away….
I will still try with all my best efforts to make you melt with all my heart to get you back as my Queen. In case if you block me ?? then I will express in my notes and I know this won’t let you bother but God will be witnessing all the emotions which I have for you. I know my love this is not gonna happen, I just mentioned as an example in case.
And hopefully soon we meet someday if our life permits, lots of love, hugs and kisses with many more unknown and unexpressed feelings to you my Love. Happy Valentine’s Day. Missing you love….
Still...Until my breath stands still I carry you within my soul. The word part off must be a lie That must not be in the Dictionary, Or in the education History, In case if the day comes as such.
Still... Until my breath stands still I feel you as my fresh breath, I love you as my sweetheart I kept no place for any hate, There's only an agreement of Trust between my heart & Soul That I carry you with them,
Still... Until my breath stands still I can't stop loving you How can I ? You are deeply and dearly Living there sharing my Every moment of each day.
To be united and beloved With infinite unique emotions, Which are beyond the universe Your love is my first treasure May be I cannot express more.
Still... Until my breath stands still You are forever my precious, I love talking to you through the Moon, Wishing to meet you at least at the heaven, As these hopes of you will never die Till...& Until the Sun & Moon end ruling the sky.
Let me make sure, my breath is fresh on the day when I am gonna meet you or making sure I’m sleeping good enough for long hrs and not having any sweating odours under my armpit.
Taking fresh mint or brushing one hour before the kiss. All this planning of self hygienic just to make sure if the first kiss happens, so it should be PERFECT.
After that setting up the mood. As first kiss with you will be very special moment and want to remember rest of our life.
So deciding which location and what time it should be done. Evening or night ? Crowded or full privacy ?
Dressing up nicely to put more efforts just to make sure this day, you are about to have a special moment.
Making sure that you are in mood. This is major thing to keep in mind. It does not matter how much preparation I may plan before this moment happen.
Later on…?? my heart is like stopped!
This is what usually most of the people do. That they need this special moment in that way and for them special means all these things.
In my prospective, my special moment with you is not making only at the first time but to make every moment as special as possible.
Every moment of our’s itself is special for me, Either it’s seeing you for the first time, After such long distance or innumerable times kissing you but I don’t look for the location to be so amazing and romantic or we wont even be so much smelling in good fragrances.
Amazing moment is just seeing and meeting each other irrespective of external attractions but with internal fragrances of our love and feelings.
What if we get sick and that’s the day destiny make us to meet? For the first time? I wont care about fresh breath or any such romantic places. I still love to kiss you and still that moment will be special for me. With our love and deepest feelings, we would make that moment as sooo special.
Special is the moment itself. When we spend time and express feelings together. Without making only one day special and rest not. That’s not a sale. One day super sale and other days back to normal prices types.
For us, our togetherness is always gonna be special. As we are special for each other.
So, our first kiss will be special and not just first kiss but every kiss & romance along with every sad & bad moments of us. We always gonna make this whole journey special by being together is the biggest special thing to us.
But yah, happy kiss day for the purpose of valentine’s week and for the shake of world as they celebrate “kiss day” special but for us everyday is a kissing day and everything we do in love is special together. Loving kisses to you my Love.
She: A kiss to the Newborn
On this beautiful day! After the cool Sunset When the Moon was lazy Our hearts were crazy Awaiting for a light To celebrate at right My little Star was born Luminously from the heaven Making our lives shine.
Many more happy returns of the day my smarty.... Many loving kisses to you "Newborn naughty"....
Feel my kiss, as soft as the feathers and mother's touch.
Our hearts are flowers With many special fragrances, We spray them with our breaths In each fast beat it gives, When we meet and make it special
We are the world in the Universe of our love. With our own notion, And passion of fondness. Your first kiss & touch Would be my flight to- The heaven we create, By feeling each of them As a falling raindrop.
Are you hurt?? Hug me with all your heart, Close your eyes and feel it. Let your heart touch mine, They have lots to speak out- Their silence, let's listen.
May be you kept it holding, I may kept it without sharing Hurting each other for a reason. Let them speak out their hearts Hug me tight and let's listen.
Do they really deserve any hurt? Truely no for our flaws&faults. Now, let's open our eyes firmly And look straight at each other, They do have something to share. Let them shred it out from heart Do not look away, let's listen.
Let them shred their deep feelings and hurts out, Let's feel their feelings, And their soundless scream. Did you notice something? My tears are in your eyes Your's are reflecting in mine.
Either a pleasure or misery, We share it together like - A hug, a tight hug by uniting. A protection to feel & conceal, Our sincere love & soul as one.
There must not be a place To any unknown mixups among, Though if there comes something, We resolve it only by hugging. It gives goosebumps to feel That hug and touch of your's.
May be one day, I would love to fly, In the flight of your hug And blow away all my stress And lowness out into the air, Before my breath blasts into the sky.
He, who’s perfectly imperfect but real and practical.
The statement or saying which you may say from your voice or you will be doing this definitely in future known as ‘promise’.
According to the entire world Promise defines this way exactly.
In my perspective Promise means I don’t promise.
I promise, I don’t promise that I promise to be perfect and make you always happy.
It’s a bitter truth of life. Take anyone, any couple or any bond For example family they knew you from the birth. Yet still you will hurt and make them sad with your actions. Not able to fulfil what you say as promise.
It’s in human nature itself .. even after knowing all the imperfections and all the flaws of each other. Still situations comes where they get disappointment and hurt.
So why human see “PROMISE” as perfection?
Promise is made up with the imperfect sinner souls which are we as human. So never keep expecting that promises always gonna be perfect.
So yes I don’t wanna promise this perfect promise to you.
Only I promise to promise that yes maybe I will let you down in some phase of life and I can’t always be able to make you instantly happy but one thing I can promise is this imperfect actions of our life to accept and respect equally.
So, happy promise day my soul & shadow. Actually it should be happy imperfect promise day as we accept all our imperfect- tions yet keep this bond of us to be the strongest togetherness. Love…missing you.
She, who learnt only to accept everything that life throws at.
I need your presence Not the promise May be one day We suffer and struggle Into deep emotion By breaking them up.
Better not to keep, Such false promises. Yes we are imperfect Accepting them equally. All broken ones are those, In the list of lost world Who might kept promising And broke into pieces, One day, when they can't- Keep up the expectations.
Yes, instead of promises Acceptance is important. As we darely and deeply Occupied each other's space. Hope this would move ahead Smooth with no rough ways.
Keeping just "Promise" In case one day if you say, "You own, I lost, so.. I don't have power to' Tolerate your flaws"?
Not promise, heart will break May be it gets real attack. I love that we never keep Any promises. Also I see You never say thanks or sorry
Everything ends only between Hugs and love how wow to feel. Uniquely universal you are, I may have many flaws... But you made me to purify Myself and be only for you.
Last but not the least, Though It can be imperfect, I would love to promise Something perfectly. If the day comes that makes you feel I am your risk, never ever... I would push myself into hell But never cause any risk to you.
I respect and love you for- Whatever you are, I never count your flaws whatever they can be. May be one day, you overlook Deep Into my heart to feel that.
Actually people give teddy bears on this day but for me the real teddy bear is you. Very soft and squeezey way.
So you must be thinking just coz I’m soft squeezey way how can I be teddy bear ?
And also you must be thinking how you know ? As I never ever touch you.
So what if I haven’t yet touch you ? The feelings and this emotions Make my body temperature change Without your touch.
When things gets bad Soul and body both again gets affected Without your touch.
Even impact my mind so much that I am Unable to focus on anything. Without hug or touch if organs are so powerful like it can affect the brain, then why not this soul able to feel how amazingly softer you may be when I am gonna hug and squeeze you.
Without your touch I feel your touch When I crave and express you. And people who say Imagination is fictional,
Let them think Only I may understand and you. How this cravings make the imagination So real as I feel every touch as yours.
I feel this teddy bear is in me You are within me. If imagination is not real, Then people can never think due to imagination they were able to invent so many technologies. Thinking something is imagination that’s how human feels and lives.
Also when I talk to you verbally, You open the eyes of my soul in new way. Now I never wanna think of other possibilities and just want us to be one by hook or crook.
“You are my teddy bear”. And I’m proud and blessed to have such teddy bear in my life.
Happy teddy bear day my…..
I see you being sad, I will be with you. “I am still ALIVE”.
She smiled, cried and replied toherTeddy 🧸
I read you and my reply right away, can only be tears baby. Loving to love you more n more. Each day, every minute & moment. Celebrating our true and deepest feelings in the name of Valentine’s week.
First time in life something, making me to feel sooo value for myself to be alive after hell of troubles till now. But it’s killing me to imagine what if the day comes demanding me to move ahead to hell, when you go away from me? this imagination is killing me soo badly.
I remember this quote I read somewhere which has in my mind since my childhood., “Imaginary fear is more dangerous than real experience” it’s soo true and feeling it as this is pulling me down soo badly.
Why did you dig those feelings soo deeply. Kill you...kill you....and it's like murdering myself if you ever leave me.
Now come and hug me feel the touch of your teddy. This heart is more softer than that, dont squeeze it hard by letting me live without you...❤️
You are alive in each beat of my heart You are alive in each breath I inhale You are alive in my every thought You are alive in each blink of my eye You are alive in each feel of my craving You are alive in each fear I refer You are alive in each stream of my blood flow You are alive within me, Until I am alive. From this second to until my life's end and beyond.
I am mad of you, I can't resonate any such reason, imagination, situation or moment that will take you away from me. I am living with you feeling you within me every minute and moment soo madly....
Chocolates are not sweet, It depends on the kinds In the same way, Feelings are not always sweet for us.
We may travel through dark, bitter moments at some point, Just say when you or me lose our parents, I don’t know how I would be able to make you better at that moment.
I may try to make you laugh – Which may be worst thing to do, May be I do nothing and give that grief space. You know, this heart won’t be in peace. As that moments this soul never want to see those tears tare you into pain.
This includes even me I don’t know, how I’ll be on that day when I am gonna lose my parents. But I want on such moments, our dark, bitter taste of flavoured phase. We should be One and able to handle each other.
Chocolates comes with expired date. So some day you or me. Anyone of us Gonna expire from this planet. I don’t know when but Yah, I pray either this expiration comes on the same day to us or I die first.
I think of our distance, later on I add up many things. In a lost way.
Apart from distance, it’s a mystery if we ever gonna meet or not
After that it’s about the circumstances as time and situations keep changing, will we be able to manage such time or will that time rule us?
Time when you be a mother again and that Stage of those precious crucial 9 months and responsibilities of family, in-laws and ya your life partner
All this plus protecting our bond with all of them, also when time you will be injured or sick in case or
When your future kids cause you trouble or you going with issues of your family, in-laws, life partner or career or anything that comes in life
Everything is gonna affect on one thing that’s “TIME”.
And moreover, I don’t know how you will be, your nature based on these circumstances. This is also gonna impact with time.
I don’t know if we add all these things… how much time and in other words if you say how much or how many memories I’ll be able to make with you.
That’s why I keep on telling you that life is very short and every second is crucial and precious to me when it comes to you.
And you know, I always mention as your “Life Partner” I never mention ‘soulmate’ as life-partner.
You know why? “In chocolates kitkat can’t be a Cadbury dairy milk”.
Both May made up with coco Which is sperm same material But still they are not same. Difference, perspective and thinking Makes lot of impact.
So life partner can be everything Able to support love and care And be always 24 hours with you Yet they can’t always understand you. They won’t always be able to respect your choices and decisions. At some point in time, they will fail to understand you as they have limits and boundaries. They can’t always accept what you want in life.
‘Soulmates’ are the same Not perfect in everything, Yet they always acknowledge in positive way even if it’s not positive thing. Either that’s your life choices or any situation. They may not understand everything Yet they will give heart to listen and respect it even though that thing won’t include any happiness to his soul. They still always have heart and be with you. Then either any mistake is forgettable or never forgettable, They are like diaries. “Not always living together but still staying together as one soul”.
Today is chocolates day but for me.. it’s OUR DAY. Everyday belongs to us. Even the week .. instead of Monday to Sunday.
It’s Our Day Each Day is our’s untill our last day of breath.
Yes! I do have all these thoughts how we are gonna survive our journey based on all these obstacles.
Heart says only one thing. The way in this present day you are able to survive. In the same way. Just have faith in this “bond of us as one”.
So happy chocolate day oops! I mean “OUR DAY” of chocolate memories with precious flavours of us 💕
What will she have to write back??
I am taring myself into tears To read these deepest feelings. Those metaphors scuse my heart, It gives me pain to imagine, That phase of "parting off" Can't resonate with the reasons.
I only have tears, confusion, fear, feeling, missing, almost dying with all such mixed ups... All together melting my heart, Into a creamy bloody chocolate. No words, I can't write more, I am almost lost, totally down.
Though we are independent - With all the rights reserved, To reach each other with no restrictions, Still, we are strictly holding And restricting ourselves To preserve the peace to others.
Those are may be our family, Any individual or parents, Just to keep up the cultures, Traditions or religious things Sacrificing our hearts for all I don't know what to name us.
May be I am for someone else, Also you will be sure, One day or other, Soon or later but sure. Not sure of hell or heaven, Where the time takes us to be.
But, I am sure to be your's. Except God and faith in him, I have nothing to promise. I keep up this chapter open, Letting the time and fate to- Write our epic journey together.
Irrespective of any existed - Names for this love of us, I would like to feel it as- A blessing to have you for me, Where I can mirror reflect, Myself for whatever I am.
I was skillful enough to handle My heart with many hurts to it But, to carry these heavy- feelings of us with many Blocks and obstacles to face, I am soo week and can't make A single day without you.
I know, the distance between us Is like the Sky and Earth. The universe is beautiful, Just 'coz of them may be, Likewise you & me and our togetherness. I am blessed.
Learnt to turn these tears Into flowers and pray God. Offering them at his feet, Asking to be with us and Bless us to meet one day. May be at the heaven, If not on this planet.
She: Oye…! Is today the Propose day? Accept my proposal and Be prisoned in my heart forever. You did wrong giving me a Rose. Now you will have to face me. Be mine baby, you are my Blessing.
He: Love… I am happy If I did wrong, I am ready to face you anytime. Yes, to be prisioned…. Where we both locked up. In the flames of our feelings, No escape, only keep up, This bond beyond the measures. We both are blessing for each other.
When he lay on her laps, She leans up to his lips. They look so cherry blossom, Oh!Sweeter than lollipops And colder than Ice cubes
His feather touch fingers, Moistures her chubby cheeks. The power in his eyes, The fire in their feelings, Awww that scenic beauty… Steals the hearts away to imagine
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